Feelings...

Times flies....in another 2 days, my dad would have been dead for a full month....It sounds ironic and weird but daddy's demise has caused me to rethink about a lot of things.....and most of them are positive things.....therefore, even tho i do not consider myself as a religious person, i like and chose to think that it's my daddy who has blessed me with all that....

With my husband, i always get upset when i feel that he does not verbalise enough about his feelings for me...but the truth is...my hubby and my dad are the 2 most important men in my life so instead of always pondering and whining about the unspoken love from him, why dun i chose to focus on the actual actions of love from him? Life is very unpredictable & fragile...although i am sad to see my dad leave us, but I have no regrets or any nagging thoughts because I know that as a daughter, i have done the best i could....but I ask myself all the time "Can i say the same for my hubby?".....if something happens to him tomorrow, can i honestly and trufully tell myself that as a wife, I have done the best i could for our marriage.....the answer is "no"....

so, from now on, I wana focus on being a good wife and a good friend to him. He may never be the man to shower me with sweet nothings in my ears and do exactly what i want him to do...but he is understanding, gives me the space to do the things i love, ambitious, career minded, astute, reliable, dependable, honest, trusts me.........all these are the traits i want in my man....so what can i complain about???

I love you hubby!!!!!....altho I cannot promise that i will never be mad at u again, cannot promise i will never do or say silly things again but i am really trying so be tolerant with me ok???? The bottomline is that U R MOST IMPORTANT TO ME!!!

MUACKS