Day 1

Yesterday - Sucks. Had a fight. Back to his "Poor Me" mentality and how he never makes me happy and how he always seems to fuck up...Half of him wants out of this...Great! Just the answer I need for my life right now...My point - why can men never decide what they want? I'm sorry dude...in my life, you are either IN or OUT completely....so until you figure out what you want, You are OUT! Surprisingly, I got to fall asleep relatively fast at 9.30pm without being too upset about it. Maybe it's a sign. Whatever...

Day 1 - Suprisingly, I feel alright...it could be better but on the whole, I feel alright..After all, it's HUMP day....can't be that bad right?LOL...I'm still not as upset and crazy as I thought I was gonna be....maybe that will come in the next few days....hopefully not...This is Day 1 of no texting, no emails and no phone calls...I dun feel much like working though...I am starting today as Day 1 of "No Contact" & Day 1 of a new healthier lifestyle & Day 1 of starting a "Grateful" journal here...In fact, I am gonna make sure I show my wellness coordinator at work every Friday my meals journal and start being accountable for the food choices I make...I figure at least, I could try to get myself slimmer without a man....cos dating does make you fatter..I swear!! LOL....did a 15 mins walk at 10am today and am going for Jazzercise tonight!!! I need to punch someone....so the exercise will be good :-)

So I am gonna do a "Grateful" Journal for the next 2 weeks every single day on my blog...It just means that every day, I will write 3 things I am grateful for in life.

Today, I am grateful for having my 2 dogs, a very wonderful relationship with my ex-hubby and the elusive sun at Fort St John....